a day in the life of :o: me

9:33PM - Brainfall.com Quiz Result

Which Disney Princess Are You?
	You are Pocahontas. You defy convention and sometimes do what is considered taboo. Unfortunately, others do not always appreciate your differences, so it's good that you are so strong-willed. You are loyal and you believe in fate. Your true love will find you one day.
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10:39PM - back from sabbatical

wow--

i haven't updated this journal in a really long time. well, i mean, i've updated, but i haven't consistently written about meaningful things in a long time. my new blog address is molliedickerson.blogspot.com. at least, i think that's what it is. i update on that a bit, but i'm finding that the whole public blog thing is losing its appeal. i don't like everyone knowing what's going on with me. hah.

i used to just write generally about my day-- school, church, etc. but now that i'm not in the same school environment as most of my readers, i find it hard to write about school because my readers don't know what i'm talking about. i used to write about it because i felt like i was clarifying for people who see me every day. "you know how i was on the verge of a breakdown in english today? this is why." i don't know. i felt like i was filling some civic duty-- to keep an account of some things that were going on with me so people would know maybe why i was the way i was.

but now, i'm not feeling the need to explain who i am much. i do feel like i've changed a lot since high school-- even though it was only a year ago. i feel like i've done a lot of growing up. not done, but a lot. as i wrote like 3 entries ago (because it's been that long since i've posted) i attend Brigham Young University. it is an interesting experience, to say the least. but by the end of my freshman year, i learned to like it quite a bit. and it helps that my beautiful nephews are there. i miss will so much, and i miss sawyer by default. i also answered a survey on here like 15 entries ago, in which i was asked if i believed in love at first sight. well, have you ever had nephews? that, my friends, is complete love at first sight. will is "my boy" as far as i'm concerned, and i don't have to hold or see sawyer in person to know that i love him just as much.

i love being related to adorable children. i can't imagine what it will be like someday to have little mollies running around. hopefully they won't be little mes. i want my kids to be better than me. lol.

anyway. i don't know why i'm updating this again. mostly because i'm bored right now i think. i work at friendly's, and that has been taking up a lot of my time. but i've also been hanging around with friends, etc, and it's been really fun. today i went to dinner with mrs. bing and ms. line and it was lovely-- just what i needed. i miss them when i'm at school-- and i will miss them when i go back. mrs. bing said we'd see each other before i left for utah again, so hopefully we will because we said no good-byes that would last for months on end. :P

i think i'm writing on here again just because i want to write right now, and this was the first blank page available to me. i doubt there are more than 2 (if that) people that will read this entry within a week of it being posted. ehh whatever.

i have to work tomorrow, so i suppose i should go to sleep. reading the archives on this journal, it is amazing to see my high-school-self post things. i mean, i know who and what i was then, but to see it documented in writing is kind of strange. not that i've changed a whole lot, but i feel like i have made some progress. when i was in high school, life was a trial. it was like pushing a wheelbarrow full of bricks up the side of a mountain. i could never rest. [literally-- averaging 4 hours of sleep, with as little as 40 minutes a night] i had to keep pushing and pushing and pushing if i didn't want it all to fall on top of me. good gracious how intensely exhausting that was.

i'm tremendously glad my life isn't like that anymore.

anyway. i don't know why i'm babbling, so i'm gonna stop.

i hope you 2 readers are doing well. enjoy your weeks. i hope you're enjoying your summers. :)

until i-don't-know-when,
:o: me

12:33PM

11:29PM - where does the time go?

wow.

I can't even explain how much I can't believe it's already 2007.

2006 was ... one of the fastest moving years of my life.

I'll have to write soon!

:o:me

p.s.- hah it's funny cuz it's 2007 here on the east coast, but apparently livejournal is managed somewhere west of me, because it posts this entry on "december 31" haha. (:

3:12AM

today was an ok day.

(so i'm posting this on the 6th, but it's 2 am, so by "today", i mean december 5.)






haven't posted in a while. maybe i will soon.

:o:me

12:45PM - just a song.

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile
more than anything, more than anything,

My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
and you never need to carry more than you can hold.
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too.

Yeah, this is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
all the ones who love you in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get.

Oh, I hope you find God's grace in every mistake,
and you always give more than you take.

Oh more than anything, yeah, more than anything,
My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big and your worries stay small,
and you never need to carry more than you can hold.
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too.

Yeah, this is my wish.

(Rascal Flatts- My Wish)

I just heard this song... and I have to post it.

12:13AM - my fellow livejournal-ers...

HELLO!

Ok, so I haven't written here since I got to utah... I know... shame on me. I've been busy! Sort of. But anyway... I gave you the link to my blogspot, which I have been updating regularly. But I will get in the habit of writing here again... just as soon as I get in the habit of writing anywhere again.

Yesterday I was quite homesick, which was sad. But I'm trying to get over it (o;

I'll be home in 3 months and a few days! (o: But hopefully soon I'll stop counting down (o:

Anyway, just saying hello, and letting you know that I haven't forgotten about you or abandoned you, my dear livejournal readers. I will write again.

-mollie

p.s.- SARAH KEMP I CAN'T BELIEVE I LEFT SO SOON EITHER!! (i just read some entries of yours) and i miss you. you better keep me updated on cromwell ward laurel life! OH and i just got a calling today in my new ward... but they'll sustain me on sunday and then i'll tell you (o; (p.s.- this calling does not exist in a real ward. haha)

6:36PM - oh where oh where could I be?!

hello everyone

i realize it's been more than a month since i updated here, but that will probably change drastically once i leave dear old connecticut for the last time for five months.

or perhaps i'll get a new blog website so i can post pictures more easily, etc. and then i can give out the link/web address so people can see what i'm up to for college, but won't have access to all of this stuff (archives, etc.)in that case, i'd probably still post here, but would put more generalized information on the new site.

anyway, i haven't made a conclusive decision regarding that yet, so i'll just stop talking. but i'm just giving you, my faithful readers, a heads up.

anyway. my point in writing is that i will be in NYC tomorrow until late tuesday night, so i will be inaccessible except for my cell phone. (i feel like this is forever- imagine how i'll feel being inaccessible for 6 days in the car with my parents, on my way to utah- in my most likely emotionally raw state. lol) if you're wondering why we're going to NYC- refer to april 2nd's entry. we're going to use those passes. and my dad has a business trip.


ANYway. so that's my point- i'll be out of state until wednesday, in case anyone was wondering, which i'm sure you probably weren't, but regardless.

one more weekend left in CT!

-mollie

Current mood: blank

10:30AM

i just woke up after having slept for 10.5 hours and i feel exhausted.

how is that possible?!

10:44PM - what's in a name?

look what this says about me and my name... kinda creepy...

* Although the name Mollie creates the urge to understand others, we point out that it causes you to be emotional and temperamental.

* Your first name of Mollie has given you a quick-minded, sensitive nature.

* It gives you a clever, creative ability in art, music, singing, or drama and an appreciation for refined surroundings.

* Your sociable nature expresses affection, kindness, and thoughtfulness to the extent that it is difficult for you not to be affected by others and governed by your emotions, rather than by logic and reason.

* As you respond to love and encouragement from others, your romantic and dreamy nature can easily lead you into love affairs.

hmmm...

11:40AM - another riveting update

well...

i officially waited long enough to write about graduation that i kind of feel like i shouldn't say much of anything at this point. that's good for you, i suppose.

i'll say a little bit though: it was good. i'm going to miss a lot of familiar faces. it's not even that i was terribly attached to most of the people, it's just that... you get so used to seeing them every day of your life. it's a comfort thing. but anyway. and then there are those people that i AM terribly attached to. and, well, i'm going to miss them a lot. don't ask me how i'm going to deal with going to utah (a billion miles away from these people) because i don't know yet.

i know i'll be fine. because if we care enough about those relationships, we can find a way to make it ok. but, it's still upsetting to be so far away from the people who really matter to you. oh well. i only have a month and 10 days or so left in good old CT, and then we're off on a trip across country to move in at school. very crazy. i am hoping before then that i can really... spend time with some people. say our good-byes and feel like maybe my relationships with those people will be ok even though i'll be so far away. after all, there will always be computers and phones.

anyway. so that's what's going on. not very exciting, i know. i worked at the gho (it will always be the gho) this past week. emptying garbage cans- picking up garbage- it was pretty disgusting. beer dripping down your leg because the bag has about ten holes in it and you have to carry it 1/2 a mile to the dumpster. yummy. but, it had it's advantages (o; we won't go there. however, i did get my shoulders sunburned. that's not making me very happy.

anyway. so then this week, i'm waiting to hear from kohl's because i applied there. i don't think they're going to call me though. so if i don't get the kohl's job, i will have a job working for the bishop (of our church) at his cleaning business. we went for a "trial" day yesterday- to see what we'd have to do, etc. we'd be cleaning the houses down by the goodspeed opera houses where the actors/directors/etc stay during performances. it's kind of cool. but that's a long commute!

anyway. so that's about all that's up with me. our church is having a youth conference tomorrow till saturday. i'm invited to go. but i'm 18. and i feel kind of like i shouldn't. not to mention, i don't really WANT to go. it's a "pioneer trek" thing- meaning- we wear pioneer dresses and walk a lot, and camp, and make our own food, and... it just doesn't sound all that enjoyable to me. i haven't been going to the youth activities for a while, and i don't consider myself really in young women's anymore, so i don't think i should go on this youth trip. my mother on the other hand, thinks i should. of course. it might have to do with the fact that she's spent the last few days frantically sewing pantaloons and other such pioneer garb, but i'm not sure. it might have to do with the fact that she just wants me out of the house. or it could be a combination of both. but anyway. GRR. so... we'll see how that goes. but... i feel like it's like going on a field trip with the high school- why would i do that?! i'm out of high school. i'm out of the youth program. but whatever.

ok, now i think i'm really done updating. not much is happening around here. just another lazy summer- though i should be working and earning money and all.. but i suppose i will have a more concrete work schedule next week. next week is going to be fun, i think. hopefully. seeing lots of people, doing lots of fun things. we'll see.

we might be going to the fireworks tonight- i guess that's semi-exciting.

until again,
:o: me

Current mood: blank

Current music: none, unfortunately

4:54PM - postponed

*sigh*

graduation.

will write at some point.

:o: me

2:48PM - am i dreaming?

i cannot even believe that this day is here.

i am graduating from high school tonight. the next time i wake up, i will be a cromwell high school alumnus.

i can't believe this... it's still so surreal. it's happy and sad at the same time- which emotion do i choose?

:o: me

5:39PM - HALLELUJAH!!!

i'm writing because
1) i haven't in a long time
2) something has recently occurred that calls for a little celebration...



well, i'm not going to write about everything that's happened lately, but i will say that it's rained 8 straight days. EIGHT. that's more than a week. i can't even count all those days on one hand. that's a long time. just rain rain rain rain. well, i was downstairs about five minutes ago, sitting on the couch, and i felt something warm on my hair, and i thought "hmmm what is that?" and i swung around and looked out the window, and ... it was SUN!! the warmth was sun. now, granted, the sun wasn't "out" necessarily, but it's light was making me warm. for the first time in 8 days. and then, as i was looking out the window, something else caught my eye. what is that? i know i know what that is, but it's been so long since i've seen it that... oh YEAH! BLUE!!! i almost forgot what blue skies looked like! (o; so much rain, and so much gray sky, it was sooo nice to see a different color out there. i'm sure the sun will come out for real soon once it gets over its new-found shy-ness. but i don't even care; as long as the skies are blue, and the rain goes away!

i announced this new finding to the household and we cheered a little. my mom's going on a walk to commemorate the occasion. as for me, i'll just sit inside, looking out my window, enjoying it. thank you.

oh nice weather, how i missed you so!!!

mmmmm.

later,
:o: me

Current mood: very satisfied with mr. sun

4:14PM

Official May 1st,

I AM GOING TO BRIGHAM YOUNG UNIVERSITY IN PROVO, UTAH!






















so now you know. and if you ever think about going out that way, you BEST be visiting me!!!!!

Current mood: finally decided.

8:58PM - just an update

Well...

I haven't updated in a long time, so i thought it was time for another exciting installment of my daily life. So we went back to school today. This is it; no more vacations until summer. we're in the 'home stretch'. scary to think about. but anyway. so... i have two english impromptus due tomorrow and i suppose i should write them.

so, let's see, what's been happening. oh, before vacation i was sick for two days. it was a very odd sickness. just kinda came out of nowhere, lasted for 48 hours and then left me with a little cough. i still somewhat have that little cough. but anyway. so i got myself up and dragged myself to school the thursday before school got out. i had to make-up a physics test and turn in a psych paper. it was very stressful. but i went back to school today and got grades on both of those things, and i did ok, so that was a relief.

then vacation. i did nothing on friday. there was a church youth trip to boston but i didn't go because i still wasn't feeling totally great yet. however, i did clean my room, which was great. it's so much better to have a clean room. mmm. so then on saturday i... went shopping. got some new clothes, very exciting. then sunday was easter. we had our annual dickerson children easter egg hunt. i apparently suck at such things. my sister made almost double the money i made, and she also got a basket full of candy. i got three gum balls. she split hers and shared it with me. mmmm candy. got some adorable pictures of our little nephew in the mail and megan and i are currently squabbling over who gets to keep them. so anyway. then... monday. i'm pretty sure i did just about nothing. somewhere in there i went mini-golfing with megan and jenna. i bought fabric to alter my prom dress. i started making a dress for church. i read a book and a half and was very excited about it. reading. like, for fun. i haven't done that in a long time.

ummmm... i can't remember much else that i did. i went out to lunch with rachel and ashley. rachel and ashley came over and we watched october sky which is now on my top list of favorite movies, and soundtracks. hah. then i went to breakfast with susy and dinner with derek. and then ... i think that was about the extent of my vacation. didn't do anything saturday. went to church sunday. back to school today. school. there are only 43 more school days left in my senior year. (!!) oh boy.

anyway. so i guess that's about all i've got to say lately. school is school, and my life is my life, as usual. nothing too spectacular has happened lately. i have to make a college decision very soon. i suppose you'll know if and when i have made that decision. prom tickets go on sale tomorrow... that's kind of exciting i guess.

well, later.

:o: me

Current mood: not worth explaining

9:49PM - procrastinating, so you benefit. or suffer. it's all the same.

well...

yesterday was my 18th birthday. good-bye seventeen. good-bye to your drama and your troubles and your everything else. hello 18. hello to your opportunities and potential. 18, you mark some of my life's biggest changes: graduation, college. hard to believe i'm that old. my mom just keeps saying we don't seem like we're 18. i don't feel that old. oh well. anyway.

so on friday afternoon megan and i went to dinner with our former teacher from church who is moving this week. we went to abc pizza as a farewell. then my mom ordered a pizza for us to pick up while we were there so we sat in the parking lot waiting. until we looked over and saw an assortment of chs teachers hanging around on the patio at the coach's bar next door. it was just too weird so we drove away and waited on the road. i don't think they saw us though.

then i was home on friday night, exhausted, and then ashley called and they had gone to the mall and she said they were going to ice cream and so i decided to go. they picked me up and we went to ruby tuesdays for appetizers and they had little gifts for me which was nice but very unnecessary. i didn't realize it was a birthday thing. woops. but it was nice.

so i went to bed and slept soundly the whole night which was great because on thursday night i had only gotten 50 minutes of sleep and on wednesday night i got 3.5 hours. so saturday. my mom had this plan to go to new york city, buy these passes that get you discounts and free stuff at various places in the city, and then go and visit those places and then go shopping. megan and i got money to go shopping. we bought the passes, and then went to nbc to take the studio tour (which was free with the card) and though the tours run every fifteen minutes, they were sold out until sunday (aka today) so that was a bust. so we decided not to use the cards (which are activated once you use them the first time, but only last twenty-four hours) so yeah. so we decided to go ice skating in rockefeller plaza.

... there's a story for you...
so megan and i rented skates and went out on the ice. we paid for a two-hour session on the ice. when we got out there, there was pretty much no one there so we got to just skate around and do whatever. then more people started coming. the ice was not totally frozen and there was about an 1/8" film of water on it. we watched some kid faceplant and get the whole front of him totally soaked. watching america's funniest home videos in the past, i've always thought that watching people fall down was boring. but watching them fall down ice skating is pretty entertaining. but i told megan that i didn't want to fall because then my pants would be went for a long time. so i'm just skating around and i stopped and turned and megan was coming at me, and she skated right over to me, and pushed me. yes, i lost my balance and fell onto my knees on the ice. got my pants all wet. she just stood there and said 'i didn't mean to!' oh whatever. it was totally malicious. hah. so i took a 30 second break to cry a little because i really banged up my knees. (they really hurt...very bruised) and then i went to go back on the ice and megan saw that i was still pretty ... confused as to why she would come over with a smile on her face and push me down when i told her i didn't want to be wet. so she fell to her knees and rolled over on the ice (aka water) and got herself pretty wet and then said 'there. happy now?' and i was. hah. we skated for another hour or so. oh, and by the time we left, our pants were dry.

then we were ready for lunch and my dad knew some barbeque place that was good so we spent a while walking around looking for it, but couldn't find it. so we finally just ate at olive garden in times' square. then we went to macy's. we tried on prom dresses. they had two i really liked and had to choose between. one was a cream color and one was red. i picked the red one because i wore a pale color to prom last year. so yeah. it was expensive, (not terribly expensive, but certainly more than we're used to paying for those kinds of things) but it was our birthday gift and so we bought them. then we spent 1/2 an hour in this dispute with the saleswoman over getting a discount and using a gift card and it was all very confusing. we finally left the fourth floor junior's floor and went downstairs. i had some money left from what my mom gave us, and i've always wanted a perfume. a "scent". i don't know why, i just have always wanted to have a trademark scent. so i bought expensive perfume. hah. i love the smell though. i know, it was somewhat wasteful, but it was my birthday, and it was a splurge, and sometimes you just have to treat yourself. we got done at macy's at like 7:30 and then we ran and caught the 8 o clock train home.

we got home at 10:30 and then we opened our presents at home. my mom bought me my portfolio of senior pics from keith sipes. and we got sets of fine-point sharpies which are really nice. i like art things. when i'm in the mood. and then i got a picture of me from keith. here's the story... when i went to get my senior pictures taken, i asked that we go to the elementary school so i could get my picture taken on the tire swing. we went. keith took a billion pictures and then said he had to change the film because he had just finished all those in black and white and wanted to take some color. so he did. when i got the proofs back, i only saw two color pictures from the swing. we asked about the black and white ones but he said he developed everything he had.

when my mom went to buy my pictures, he showed my mom about 25 black-and-white swing pictures; the ones we never saw and the ones he said he was pretty sure he didn't have. apparently some of them were really cute and i'm sorry i didn't get to choose from them when i ordered for the yearbook. but anyway. he said he was entering one of them into a photo contest. so, my mom bought an 8x10 of the one he was entering, and it is really cute. so i got that picture. i just wish i could display it somewhere without it being weird. because i can't take it to college and take it out and put it on my shelf. my roommates would no doubt think i'm weird. (well, they might think i'm weird anyway, but let's not encourage it. haha.) and, i got a little make-up bag from my sister with a bunch of stuff in it and new earrings which i desperately needed/wanted. cute.

so yeah. anyway. so then i went to bed at about 11-11:30. there was a party for derek that i was going to stop by at if we got home at a reasonable hour, as was the plan, but it didn't work. so anyway. before i went to bed i was admiring my dress, and... i feel this hard thing, and i look, and ... they didn't take the ink tag off the dress. yeah. a little annoying. megan's still had the ink tag on it too. so... we're gonna see if we can take them to the mall and get someone to remove them. but it was annoying.

then today i got up and went to church and then between sessions of conference, jefferson, mckenna, and vin came over for cake. i had german chocolate. megan had black forest. my german chocolate was a little sorry looking (the cake, for whatever reason, sunk in the middle and it soon looked like the cake was being poured down a funnel or something) but it still tasted really good.

i listened to the second session of church at home and then i kinda sat around. my sister called cuz she called yesterday but it was late when we got the message and megan and i were both too tired to call back. so we talked to her today.

so yup. that was about what happened. i guess i'm gonna go do some homework. hah. oh wait! tomorrow's a day FOUR which means NO PHYSICS! so i don't even have to do it! that just means tomorrow night is going to be a long, obnoxious one... calc set, psych paper, physics homework due tuesday. yikes. oh well.

:o:me

Current mood: tired

3:16PM - ...

you've got to be kidding me.

well, mondays pretty much stink. the term ends in a week. ... yeah.

that's all.

8:47PM

hey there everyone...


so the yearbook is done! i guess this is when i should sit and write that twenty-page entry i promised when the yearbook was done. but... umm... no thanks. haha. so i'll write a little, maybe a page or something, but twenty pages would be... insane. i mean, i know i could do it, but i'm sure you wouldn't really enjoy reading it. so yeah...

well. yearbook last week was crazy. monday night until 7, and then home i think, although i'm tempted to say there was something going on that day. then tuesday, yearbook until 7:30 at which point i went to the board of ed. meeting. i got home around 8:30. then wednesday, yearbook until 6:45 at which point i reported to the band room for the concert. i got home around 9:30. then thursday, yearbook until 7, when i went home. then friday, yearbook until 9pm. then saturday, yearbook from 8:30-2:30 with mrs.bing at the school... we pronounced the yearbook done that afternoon. we went home and i believe we both took naps. haha. then i had church on sunday, and then today.

the yearbook guy came today. he took the rest of our pages, and we are DONE. DONE i tell you! finished. completed. i cannot even tell you how much of a relief it is to know it's done, and to know that i tried as hard as i could on it. now i just have to hope all of you like it too. but that's not until june, so i'll try not to worry about it. so i really do have a crud-load of homework to do... physics IP project, calc set, calc quiz tomorrow, english 'analysis' and english 'annotated bibliography' that was due today, that i kinda sorta didn't finish. but... i can afford to lose the few points. i think. haha.

well anyway. my schedule has been jam packed with stuff to do. places to be. so yes. but i've been doing ok. i find the lack of free time helps me be more efficient. efficient is good. so yeah. busy, but efficient. and i really have to get my butt off my butt and do homework. haha.

today was a day where: "i've learned to never underestimate the impossible." (i believe that's .. blake shelton? i could be totally wrong... but yeah)

yes. nothing is impossible. it's a hard lesson to learn sometimes. haha.

anyway. i guess i better be going. but i just thought i'd give a little bit of updating since i haven't been able to for a while. yearbook is done. i got a 100 on my physics test. winter ended today. life is good (o;


good night all.

:o:me

Current mood: okay

10:44PM

ugh...

so tired that i don't even feel tired anymore.

yes, mrs. bing, janelle, and lauren all witnessed over-tired mollie today. how embarrassing.

well, that's about all i have time for.

when yearbook's over, i'll sit and write a twenty page entry. but until then...

:o: me